Dilemma...maybe

Since when I become so bad at expressing myself or my opinions. Maybe since I left university. Seems like when I graduated.I left out a lot of important things. Since I graduated I rarely participated in anythings. I just go with the flows as my friend said. Graduated - interviewed - posted - and now teaching for almost two years. Can I blame the environment at school? or should I blame myself? I'm restraining myself a lot at school. And I started to care so much about what other people's will say. Is it patience or is it being a coward? I have a lot of things in my mind but I can't express it somehow. Sometimes I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to. I also feel like that I'm getting bad at the things that used to be good at.

A moment to remember cause maybe this year its going to be hard to gather like this. Since everyone has their own responsibility plus new family.

Lets try again

Hello my dear blog... Haven't visited you for like almost one year but today just got the feeling to come here. Reading wadah shi blog really like give me inspiration plus I have been thinking lately that I really should start writing again...it is the only way to improve my broken grammar and my writing skills. So here I am...Lets try again. Shall we? Ya ALLAH gives me strength:)

one more chance

"one more chance" is CSJH The Grace new song. Today they make their first comeback after like four years.Been waiting for their comeback for so long. Still need to get used with the new single but love the MV so much.

Hmmm...to get along with the title song (I still don't know what the song is about), and after reading my best friends new entry for their blog, I decide to give myself one more chance with this blog thing.

I have so many things in my minds that I want to write actually. I prefer talking with friends actually but I'm too busy right now and they have their own things as well. So here I am, trying to write about it if I can...



I'm concentrating watching videos right now..so let continue tomorrow:)

Part 2

2. Super Junior Comeback

Seriously I want to spazz about Suju comeback with wadah shi but since its quite impossible right now...I end up increasing my number of post in sj-world and putting statement about them in fb. Even though I know, only certain people will understand. For me, that's enough.

Actually before suju comeback, I have been thinking how long will I stay in this lovely fandom, since I'm already 24 by the way. To other people it must be such a childish hobby and waste of time but SUJU really means a lot to me.

When I saw Miinah MV, I said to myself that I will be here for a long time. Then I read the interview about how the boys finally speaking up about hankyung, kangin appearance in the fan meeting...all this make me love and respect suju more. Being an ELFs is such a wonderful experience. I love seeing the other ELFs really put their all efforts in ensuring suju comeback is daebak.

The important things I learned from suju is about friendship and staying together even in the midst of trouble. Enduring hardship and still moving on towards your dreams. Learn to open up and appreciate the people around you.

Since I have been feeling left out from my other 'gang' due the fact that I'm really not good with replying messages and keep in touch with other people, suju really taught how important it is to really appreciate your friends. I need to work harder to be a better friends for others.

TO BE CONTINUE...

i haven't write in here for so long cause seriously i don't know if i can get used to this blogger thing. Still to preserve my language, i need to work hard on this...
There actually couples of things I want to talk about but since i cannot met up if my best friends...everything just piled up right now. Luckily its not that serious i hope.

1. My Little Adventure

Originally I was supposed to look for jobs around JB and Skudai. Learn how to manage myself independently. Feels what is like to be responsible for myself especially in terms of money. How is it like hunting for jobs? If I get a job then I can use the money to make a trip to the places that I really wish to go.

However, during this month things really don't work the way I want it to be. Still I learn a lot.
- how to mingle with others (housemate)
- cook 'ayam masak kicap'. Even though i did almost cut my thums into half..hehe. The scar is still visible.
- going through interviews
- making phone calls asking for jobs.

All in all, i thinks its a good experience. Even though i'm quite disappointed with myself for not looking hard enough maybe...TO BE CONTINUE

The state of my mind right now...

I'm in a no mood situation right now...

I feel like i don't want to do anything...

even though est exams is tomorrow...

psm need to be corrected and sent by 13/4 at least

dr.halim assignment etc...

still need to find a way to motivate myself...

putri himnae seyo...